Jiahui here.. :P

haha.. im jia hui..
wakaka..

log in his account and write a post..

i always check his blog to see whether he had posted new post or nt..
but it looks like he will write his blog when he is sad only..
-3-

i wan read something sweet from his blog..
i wan to knw what he was thinking about..

maybe he dnt like to write out is feeling.. *maybe*
i wish he can always be happy..

hope we dont have argue anymore..
hope that no more unhappy things happen on us..
but i knw that is impossible..

ppl said,
argue can make our relationship become stronger..

maybe it is true but dnt always la..

we in a relationship almost 10months ler..
tomolo is the day..
hehe..

im really feel so happiness can be with him..
he care me soooooo much..
all he think about is me..
he will think about me first before think about himself..
when we are sad..
he will make me happy in the first time and put aside his sadness..

he do really love me..
i can feel it..
of course,
i do too..

thanks God give me a good guy and i will cherish him..

dar..
happy 10months anniversary..
I ♥ U..

and
Thank you.♥♥♥

Waiting

Waiting,
Waiting,
Waiting someone to finish,
Waiting someone to accompany me,
Waiting someone to talk with me,
Waiting someone to make me laugh,
Waiting someone to make me happy,
Waiting someone to give me sweet,
Waiting someone to comfort me,
Waiting someone to say "I miss you",
Waiting someone to say "I love you"

But when will it be?

Let it be,
Let it go,
Let everything fall apart,
It is you, It is me.

I want you,
I waiting you,
I waiting you alone......

No one else in the middle night.

Please...... Help...... Me.....
Somebody.... Help.... Me....
I'm dying for love...
I'm calling for love...
But....
It never reach...

<3

思念

思念，
紧紧的跟随我，
没有放弃，
尽力的甩掉，
用尽全身的力气，
然而没那么简单。

思念，
一种美好的感觉，
可以把人的心理话，
一一的表现在心中，
不想让人知道，
只想一个人静静的，
欣赏它的美，
因为它可以改变每个人。

思念，
可以变成影响个人心情的武器，
可以很恐怖的杀掉一个人，
以为它可以很完美，
但原来不是。

下午三点钟，
有个人，
静静的坐在椅子上，
看着手提电脑，
脑子在运作，
静静的看着天上的云，
闭着眼睛，
想念一个人，
心里面的话，
全写在天空中，
就让天空慢慢消化，
没人知道他想说什么，
但天空知道。

蔚蓝的天空，
白白的云朵，
似乎知道那个人的思念，
慢慢的飘着去，
带着那个人的话，
传给他想念的那个人。

那个人望着云端，
仔细一望，
她突然恍然大悟，
眼睛留下泪珠，
心里面有点心酸，
也有点甜甜的感觉。

原来他写道：
“亲爱的，我很想你，不知你还好吗？
不习惯一个人，但那也是要经过的。
亲爱的，记得要想我哦，不要忘记，
有个人在等你呢。 我爱你。。。<3”

HELP =)

Admit it
We're finished
You don't want me no more
(No)
Like a night mare
I lived it
It was too big to ignore
(Ooh)
I hear the sounds
But they pass me by.
My hazard lights are flashing
Somebody, anyone -

Help cause it's an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So help
Its like a bad surgery
And now it's time to recharge.
I'm starting over
Taking
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

Abandonded, yeah I'm crying.
It's like you left me so dead
(So dead, so dead)
I'm so broken, my love's frozen.
How do you live with regrets
(Oh woah)
I see the memories flash before my eyes.
My tank is running empty
Somebody rescue me.

Help cause it's an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So help
It's like a bad surgery
And now it's time to recharge.
I'm starting over
Taking
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over
Taking
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

It's unexplainable
Kinda unobtainable
When the person you love ain't enough.
I feel so pitiful
Look at my face
You'll know the pain is in my eyes.
I need some help.

Help cause it's an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So help
It's like a bad surgery
And now it's time to recharge.
Help cause it's an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So help, it's like a bad surgery
And now it's time to recharge.
I'm starting over
Taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over
Taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

<3

Lonely

Haha its been a while that I haven't write a blog yet.. By looking at previous post, I just realize it been all about her. Hehe yup2.. It been more than 6 month i have go through everything with her. Sadness, happiness, angryness, emoness and other 'ness' ... I have face those 'ness' with her every single day. It was nice and fun with those special moment where i surprise her and she surprise me.. Every single moment we enjoy it so much and a lot of fun. Hahaha with her big laugh, she was like a crown that make me happy everyday. Sweetness have been go through all the way in this 6 month. I have try to give everything sweet to her eventhough I have financial problem. But that is specially just for her. Muahaha i'm so proud of myself. I know I'm not perfect at all but I try to be perfect for her.. That is the thing i always try to do.. So do her, she just try to be the better girlfriend for me eventhough she never been a relationship before. 

Hahaha yup2 yet I'm so proud of my girlfriend for being so nice and charming to me. I think she is just a better girlfriend for me. I just like spending time and stick with her. Nevertheless, I love her very much. That is the reason why i fall in love with her and want to spend my whole life with her. Hehe this is just a great time for me. Don't need any reason, I just want to be the only one for her. I'm the only one that i can kiss her, touch her forehead, play with her hair, hold her hands, hug her tight, comfort her when she have problem, worry her when she is unhappy and a lot of thing that i want to share with her. Hehe maybe it is greedy but i just like that way. I want to spend every single moment with her only. No doubt about that. I just want her. She could be the last girlfriend in my life and i want her to be with me 4ever. I know it is a little bit early to say that but trouble cannot stop me for moving forward to succeed. I have her to support me and i have her to accompany me.. I don't afraid anything as i believe in her and myself that we can make it <3

Tonight, is a little bit different. Haha what to say, I'm lonely. I been accompany by a laptop and slideshow. Nothing else is available for me. She.. didn't find me... I was waiting and waiting and waiting. With hope and pray. But until now she didn't... For the 1st time, i have this feeling... "LONELY"... I don't like that and i hate it so much.. Keep pressing my handphone and no notification occur. Heart like rain and eyes are cool. I just want her to accompany me.. I know today i have act like angry to her and maybe say something wrong to her. I'm here to apologise to her... Sorry dear... Maybe for tonight, I will have to stay all night long alone.. Haha look into the sky, i have miss her.. Think about her... Look into my handphone, i have a look on the picture we taken. Look into my heart, it just sadness and sadness... From all of that, I just hope she is okay and enjoy well outside there. Even i'm not by her side, I know she will miss me like i do. I trust her.. I miss her... I love her.. Dear please don't leave me alone.. I just want you to accompany me.. I have no intention to ask you don't disturb me.. I afraid that I have to wait another 6 month for 1 message onli.. If u really do that, I think i will know what i should do.. Every night, she will have time to accompany me.. But unluckily, tonight she is not here for me. I remember everything about her. My result will be better because she accompany me when i study. I feel i can score well if i have her support. But now, no more~~~ it just me... just me~~~ <3

我的老婆。。

我的老婆。。。杨嘉慧。。。哈哈

哈哈今天特别介绍一个人给你们认识。
她就是我的老婆啦。
名叫嘉慧。今年十九岁（不老也不年轻啦=p)，身高155cm (矮小的女生最可爱），体重46KG(整天说很胖），哈哈她就是我的老婆。。。。

哈哈其实想跟全天下的男人说：“杨嘉慧是我的女人。。。谁也不可以碰她。。。谁够胆就来吧。。我一定会让他尝尝我的厉害”。嘻嘻。。。老婆你也是听着哦。。。=p

我老婆的为人特别好。。是一个不错的女生。。难怪将多人追求她。。还好我手脚快。。不然就会错过这位好女生。。。我老婆啊是一个很特别的女生。娇娇滴滴的。很会怕羞的一个人。而且她的性格是很多样化的。。。她很有自己的风格。。喜欢就是喜欢。。开心就是开心。。想哭就哭。。从她的脸上的表情就可以知道她的心情。。我的老婆吗。。说她幼稚又不是。。说她很漂亮也不是非常美丽。。说她每天无理取闹也不是时常。。她就是那样的女孩。。说不出口的一种魅力。。
跟她在一起的时候，你会发现到一个很特别的地方。。那就是你都会很开心的。。也许她是一个很懂得让别人开心笑哈哈的人吧。。

羞羞的老婆。。嘻嘻 =p

哈哈跟她在一起就快要五个月了。。喜怒哀乐统统都有。。这样的体验真的很不赖。。就是因为她的出现。。。我的生活也改变了很多。。我其实是她的初恋。。不过我的老婆真的是顶呱呱。。很会体贴我。。照顾我。。给我很多正面的力量。。爱我。。就是她的一生。。嘻嘻。。我啊虽然给不到很多她想要的东西。。不过我都会尽量给他。。爱她一生。。是一个不容易的承诺。。但是我会坚守到底。。因为得来不易的感情。。使我一定要坚持下去。。她。。。就是我坚持到的理由。。
老婆我爱你。。至到永远。。我要牵着你的手。。走过万千风浪。。我要守护着你。。让你不受到一点受伤。。我要抱紧你。。让你感受爱的温暖。。我要亲吻你。。让你感受无限的爱。。我要娶你。。让你过着幸福快乐的日子。。。我真的很爱你。。。承诺是我给的。。幸福是我们的。。辛苦是我的。。快乐是我们的。。你的就是我的。。不管以后发生什么事，我们要一起分担。。一起努力。。不可以隐瞒任何事情。。。

我要牵着你的手。。走过万千风浪 <3

哈哈老婆我爱你

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~杨嘉慧~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~我要你~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~成为我~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~朱立豪~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~一辈子~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~的女人~~~~~~~

Muaksss~~~~~ <3

90天后的第一天（第一章）

       今天。。一如往常一样。。 八点多就起床了。。。 翻开自己的被。。把掉在地上的枕头都检起来。。然后抬头和东张西望。。 在找自己的手机。。这个动作应该每天都会做吧… 嘻嘻。。原来我的老婆有发信息来。。心里面有一丝丝的开心。。哈哈打开一看，原来是昨天的信息。。不过没关系。。我还是很开心收到她的信息。。 哈哈。。因为很想念她。。 所以我发了一封跟她说早安的信息。。几乎每天都会将做。。 也没有觉的不妥啊。。男人本来就是要主动一点嘛。。然后等呀等，她也没回我。。 心里就想她应该还在睡吧。。所以没有再吵她了。。。

      到了学校，还是一直注意自己的手机，不断不断的重覆拿起手机。。。一直都在等她的信息。。到最后还是没有。。哈哈又要自己孤独的过一堂课。。闲 啊。。。就专心上课吧。。大概11点多，她终于发了一封信息来了。。。就觉的很兴奋。。我老婆终于回我了。。但我又很忙。。所以会很迟才会回她。。希望她不会生气啦。。。那时候的我。。真的很想快点到 12 点30。。因为很想快点见到我的老婆。。。但是等吃的应该都会迟的。。

哈哈不过很不好意思。。。不小心弄到我的老婆生气。。真的是罪过罪过。。因为迟吃的关系就没办法 看老婆的。。所以先问她能不能来看我。。。 结果让她在外面等了一阵子。。而我却在厕所。。她也很生气。。 不过我没有想什么。。就很想快点安慰她。。放下男人的尊严。。把老婆要回来。。。结果老婆还是理我了。。很有成就感。。。不过还是很真心的想跟她说声对不起的。。如果可以的话，我很想直接打电话给她。。。跟她道歉。。哈哈不过还是不可以将做。。。因为都在上课了。。。

 回到家。。还是跟她在玩SMS。。很喜欢黏著老婆。。。不管她觉得我耐不耐烦，我都很想黏着她。。。。到了夜晚，就特别想念她。。她去了教堂。。我一个人在对着电脑。。时不时想念着她。。 看着她的照片。。 看着她的面子书。。。终于等到她跟我 skype 了。。。 哈哈又有点开心了。 超喜欢看着她。。。因为她很耐看。。。嘻嘻。。。

今天又是很幸福的一天。。。因为花了几十分钟才可以tam到她原意去睡了。。。而我还在这里回忆我的老婆。。很爱她。。也很想她。。。希望能梦见她吧。。。 嘻嘻。。。

February 4th =)

Haha time pass so fast. It's been 2 month we been together. Hehe bu zhi bu jue already 2 month. Hence there is something i need to tell my girlfriend, Jong Cheah Huoy. Sori ah because i use english... Paiseh paiseh XD...

First of all, thank you for being my girlfriend. Hmmm we know each other not quite long and you haven't understand and know me well yet. Thank you for your trust and your sincere to me. Say truthly, I'm not really a great man or guy or one of the best guy in the world... But i believe i have done a great job as your boyfriend. Yup yup yup... U have accept me as your boyfriend eventhough your muom don't let u have a relationship with someone you don't know well. You are such a brave and powerful girl as you didn't give up on me. You have continue to have a relationship with me without letting anyone know that. You scare you will meet or face somebody you know... It's like an underground relationship but yet you can hang on well.. So i must say thank you and "xin ku" you already.

Haha you are such a good girl... Charming, cheerful and very cute girl... Say truthly i really like when u laugh or smile... Ur eyes will become small and ur teeth all coming out... Hehe i admit i love to see you smile or laugh.. It look so beautiful and amazing... Dear, you are really a nice girl and please keep going with it... The main reason i really like you is the way u treat people.. You been so "true" to everyone... You don't have any worry to talk with people. That make you a really nice girl... Hehe dear... Thank you for staying right beside me whenever i go.. Thank you for take care me whenever i sick.. Thank you for listening to me when I'm sad... Thank you for giving me your everything to me to show that u really love me... I really appreciate so much because you really give me everything and 100 percent trust me... Eventhough I have a relationship for so many time, you never say that i'm so 花心... Thank you for that.. I'm so happpy to have you as my girlfriend... I couldn't ask for anything from you again.. There are a lot great moment with you and a lot 1st time with you.. Those are great memory and sorry if i cannot remember all... But i will try my best to do so... Thank you dear... Really thank you... ^^...

Hehe dear... I want to say sorry to you if i have done anything wrong to you.. Something sad or terrible that you never tell me... I'm not the perfect guy as you think... Maybe sometime I make mistake but i doesn't know... Sori if i make you shame sometime... Sori if i hurt you... And sori if i didn't treat you well... Haha i apologise to you if i didn't do my responsibility as your boyfriend... Sori also if i cannot always go visit you... Sori also if i didn't feed you well... Sori if i send u late go home and make you scold by your parent... Sori if i cannot fulfill my promises to you... Please forgive me and i hope u understand me when i cannot do something to you...

Dear... i wana say to you i really do love you... I love you very deep and always want to stay with you... Eventhough you are my 12th girlfriend, i think you will be my last girlfriend and will be my last girlfriend... U treat me well and you give me alot of thing... U didn't ask for many thing from me and u always love me... Dear... I hope one day u really can become my wife... No matter what happen, i hope you can stay beside me and give me support... I know I'm not the richest man in the world... I know I'm not the greatest man in the world.. But i hope that you still will stay beside me and support me... Dear.. I cannot give you a lot of thing... Car, house, diamond, handbags, clothes and etc... I'm not affortable to buy those at the moment.. I hope that you can wait for me no matter what happen... But if you really do leave me, I oso will let go if u really can find a better life... All i want you is to stay healthy and happy... You love me or not is not really important to me.. I love you already enough... Because you are the special one for me and deep inside my heart, i have you... I own you...

Dear... I love you so much and i always miss you.. I really do.. It's my pleasure to have you as my girlfriend... I'm very satisfield and won't ask for anything more... Hehe I don't really know how to talk and write my feeling... Hope you can feel warm and touch when you see this... This is not much i write as i write this during midnite.. Hehe sori sori... Laopo zai... Thank you... And I love you... 我爱你... I really do... Please stay with me and hope you won't leave me... I really need you by my side... =) <3

对不起

Dear... 我希望你在看这片文章的时侯。。能知道我的心意。。

Dear... 我觉得今天很对不起你哦。。 可是我很想对你说很多东西。。但是我又说不出口。。所以想在此地跟你说。。如果觉得没有诚意的话，你可以不理的。。。=）

Dear, 老婆，女朋友。。。  这些都是时常叫你的名称。。Dear 和老婆都是我时常叫你的。。。 我觉得这种名称代表着我对你的尊敬，思念，和爱惜。。。当我觉得很想你的时侯，寂寞的时候，伤心的时侯，我对会想到你。。。 在我人生最低潮得时侯，你都会在我的身边。。。

今天我却做了让你伤心难过的事。。让你想哭的事。。。我觉得很对不起你。。本来想让你有个很快乐的一天。。开心的出门，开心的回家。。。 结果今天我办不到。。觉得有点失败。。 真的很抱歉。。我很想让你天天都是开心的。。快乐的。。。虽然有时会变态，说话给人玩玩的感觉，但是我是真的想让你开心，带着笑容迎接每一天。。。当你不牵着我的手的时候，我觉得很心痛。。因为给我的感觉就好像被你甩的感觉。。。很不好受。。那时会觉的你很想不要我了。。。

记得每一年的情人节，都是自己过的。。有几次在情人节前被人甩了。。所以我很想你陪我过情人节。。。就算只是一封简单的 SMS。。我也很满足了。。。就算只是那一次，我也会很开心。。。

Dear... 我很想天天都能与你在一起。。。不是通过SMS, 打电话，SKYPE, Webcam 还是其他的。。。 我是能见到你。。可以跟你面对面聊天。。可以抱着你，亲吻你。。跟你一起笑。。我没有觉得辛苦。。因为跟你在一起才是最美好的回忆。。没有一段感情是不用付出的。。难道要等到你跟别人跑了我才去找你吗？难道要等你伤心流泪才去找你吗？难道要等你离开我了才去找你吗？我不想一时的不要而变成一生的后悔。。。但是如果你不想的话我也不会逼你的。。 你开心就好。。=）

Dear... 我是真的很爱你的。。我不想失去你。。我也不想看着你伤心。。不管你以后对我怎样。。不管你以后变的怎样。。。我都会依然爱着你。。。依然会守护着你。。。我爱的是你的人，你的心。。我是人。。也有感情。。 也会跟别人一样会胡思乱想。。但也因为有你，我才有机会学到很多东西。。。 希望你明白我的心意。。明白我对这段感情的认真与尊敬。。。

老婆。。。 我爱你。。。我想你。。 不要离开我。。不要抛弃我。。不要放弃我。。 因为我爱你。。 我真的很爱你。。。 =）

When i think of you

Haha today is the first day of chinese new year.... Its mean another year have pass by again. Nevertheless, I have grown up again and old already. Hehehe 1 year have been pass so fast. Done alot thing and learn alot thing. This year, say truely, I don't really have the mood to celebrate it. Don't know why and dun ask me why. Maybe is because something bad is happen recently.

Today i have send my daddy go airport at 4 a.m... It is a cool and silent morning i could say. 1st time in my life, daddy didn't celebrate CNY with us but he already give us angpau before he leave. Haha i feel something bad and obviously, I'm not happy. This year is been the big different compare to last year. People eat tuan yan fan with one whole big family but we eat by our own. And no more eating tuan yuan fan with relative and my cousin. Last year our family have getting into the big trouble and i hope this year will better and improve.

Haha this year CNY, i could say i lazy to celebrate cause there is no more 1 big family. That's why i always try to remind my friends to appreciate everything they have. Hahaha no idea la... This year chinese new year is like a normal day to me... Sleep and eat and play... That's all i do whole day.

Next, my dear already go to kuching tis morning also.. Hehe feel bad cause didn't wish dao her happy safe journey. She having some sickness today and i hope she can recover soon to enjoy her CNY well. Dear, you must take care well ah... Eat bao bao ta lo... Fat also never mind geh... Haha and sure i very miss her la.. Always do de la.. So i listen this song so that when i think of her, she can know that. Wakaka miss my daddy also.

Lastly hope everyone can stay healthy and happy for the whole life....  Dear I love you very much XD

Lonely by Lonely

Recently, my family having a big problem.... My mum want to leave us... And she did leave us but come back afterward. From the moment she leave, i feel sad... really sad and apin in the heart.. I was holding my tears in my eyes to avoid its leak out... But when I stay in my room, i cannot control myself and start crying like hell.. I was calling my girlfriend that time and she was shocked when i cry so badly... It feel absolutely pain and hurt in my soul.

Luckily my girlfriend keep comfort me and try make me stop crying... Yes i did stop crying but yet I still feel so bad because i have my girlfriend so worry about me. I cannot describe how well is her and the way she treat me. I can say she could be the one of the best girlfriend in my life. She love me so much and wanna come see me to check whether I'm okay. After 2 day outing with her, I feel safe and comfortable beside her... She give me a hug and kiss which is totally give me a lot happiness and safetyness beside her.... =)

Until to day, she tell me something really i care so much. She say " No matter what happen in the future, when she leave me, it doesn't mean she don't love me"... This sentence have give me a lot impact and the pain and hurt have comeback once again. I know she don't want to disobey her mother or family that she must have a christian boyfriend. For me, I will totally respect about that and as i always tell her... Listen to your mother is the first priority because she is your mother. When i listen this sentence, I feel like one day she may leave me because of certain reason. But i won't blame her because she really deserve better... She deserve someone who is Christian, loyal to her, mature, can make her laugh whole day, rich and a lot advantages... She is very nice, charming, cute and loyal to friend and her family. 

If one day, there is one guy which is a dream guy that she dream whole time, her family will support about that... I'm sure I will back off and support her. There is nothing i can do.. As long she is happy, I can sacrifice my love to her.. There is something i learn whole time... " When you love somebody, you don't need to owe her but let other people that can give more happiness to her to owe her"... I understand this sentence very well and when it happen, i definitely will do it even though i have go through all this pain and hurt but its worth if somebody can treat her well and have better background than me. I didn't act like I'm hero or god o what, I just hope that she can get the best and the one who is deserve to owe her.

Dear, i love you so much and i hope u will do the same thing to me... But if i can exchange my loneliness against your happiness... I will take loneliness as u deserve happiness... I don't mind to fail again as I can get through it.. So dear please take care yourself well and be happy everyday, i cannot give you anything as I'm not capable of doing anything anymore. I love you and god bless you <3 

First Kiss

First kiss,
It always is the best gift,
The moment she kiss me,
The moment i realize,
She really do love me,
She really do.



On the 3rd of January,
she kiss me on the mouth,
Cool lips full of emotion,
Cool lips full of surprise,
Cool lips full of love,
This was the day she melt my heart.

The way she treat me,
Is no ordinary girl,
Is no fear,
Is no afraid,
Is just love.

I want and will treat her well,
Not as a payback,
Not as a reward,
Is showing respect,
Is showing right to love someone.

No regret,
No supervision,
No crisis,
No pain,
Is just a sweet memory.

I love her,
More than anything,
she could leave me,
But i won't regret,
Because I wan her to stay beside me longer.

Dear,
I love you,
I like you,
I miss you.

Thank you for your lovely kiss.... <3

The Very First Time (Second Part) XD

23th December ~~ 1st time she cry for me le during "zuo dong"(She cry dao hen chan) =)
25th December ~~ 1st time she kiss me on my face in the car when send her home (So sweet oh the kiss) =)
25th December ~~ 1st time hug her from the back at CF (Shock dao her de) =)
1st January ~~ 1st time we finally in the relationship leh at "Tanjung Aru" XD (Happy 99 lo) =)


Hehe this is second part of this blog... This is the best day of my life as i finally find my love life again. After sometime, she give me hope to gain confident to dating and regain confident to take care a new girl again. I really need to thank her because she is so special and really caught my heart liao. I love her so much la.. Always wana miss her and always wan to kiss her.... <3 XD

Hahaha hope i can always do the best for her and love her liao... Hehe thankss everything for her =)